Trust the Journey, Trust the Process

I want to tell a story; lets call the main character Mary. All the other characters will be referred to as Trials (intermittent issues) and Tribulations (intermittent issues that linger and burrow into the dangerous canals of the darkness called the subconscious). So, Mary is born, raised and eventually transitioned into the trickery of adulthood. Throughout childhood she had trials that conditioned her to turn anxiety into energy, worry into optimism and hope into action. She enters adulthood with the rose colored shades on only to have them snatched off and stepped on by the bully called student loans, his friend called taxes, their buddies called responsibilities and the leader of the gang called grief and broken heartedness. As she transitions through her twenties and into her early thirties, self-awareness and confidence increase as she knocks down trial after trial and suppresses the experiences of tribulations. She builds self-confidence through prayer, meditation and achievement. Her child brings a level of motivation and satisfaction that can only be a gift hand crafted and delivered by God. One day, as she glues the final piece of the rose colored glasses back together, she is stunned to see that they are presenting to her a world view unlike any other. She becomes keenly aware of the obvious generational curses/behaviors/ mistakes passed down from her maternal line. She instantly becomes aware of the seeds planted in her since birth and watered daily by the gardeners that are parental interactions, social engagement, social media and religious influences. She becomes aware of her ability to change her thoughts, thought processes and overall self-view. She becomes strengthened at the thought of breaking and developing new mental models that are in alignment with who she knows at her core she was created to be. She becomes aware of the grace and peace of her higher source and excited about possibilities. She becomes aware that her renewal came at the expense of her rose colored shades.